You ***** me,
And then cried,
As if it hurt you more than me.
When you told your mother,
She said it was my fault.
When I told mine,
She asked how I missed the red flags,
And how she'd failed to teach me better,
As if she'd tried at all.
When I told my father,
He didn't care.
Now I'm drowning in air,
Silent in my pain,
Trapped inside my brain.

Ignorance is a pit,
A well of despair,
Where you suffer unaware,
Unable to escape,
Trapped,
Alone,
Loveless.

Once I dreamt of a world so grand,
I reached to hold it in my hand,
But it fell away like pale sand.

That guy, that boy, that man.
The words roll round my head,
Like a big bingo cage,
Full of thin razor blades.

They say the sun shines bright
Beyond the hills of night.

Perhaps one day I might
See this beautiful light.

For now my days are dark
My dreams are nightmares wrought.