it was 8:21 pm and i had checked
my phone for the 78th time.
even though i was the one to ignore you,
i was hoping you would still try.
this wasn't me.
i used to not be like this.
for the first time in a long time
i bought myself some ******* flowers,
poured a glass of wine, and made some cookies.
for myself.

I think I trusted you from the start... it was as easy as that...
For some reason you appealed to my heart
It was like wearing my favourite shirt
I didn't have to over think like I always do
You asked me for my Facebook name and I gave it to you
I would have lied but I honestly replied
I'm not sure... but I think my sixth sense already knew
that for all the doubts I have in my life,
I only had to meet and know you.
I understand, it's a big burden to be trusted
To hold one's heart in your palms but the idea that I have one worth my faith calms
so just let me have this one joy
If it goes wrong I'll know life always ends that way for me
I won't blame you, I promise... because I now know you would never hurt me intentionally and you're worth any hurt
you're Delilah, worth pillars crumbling and castles breaking apart
All I mean is don't be afraid,
whatever is meant to go wrong will whether I trust you or not...
*So let's just believe we aren't going to hurt each other my love... we're not...
we're not going to drift further than we're ..
we are not going to drown in the waves
We are not going to bury us in graves
We are not going to take very different ways
I don't care what destiny says
We're not going to let the world come in between
We're going to stick too close that even air won't find way
we're going to be one thing until the end
I know it's wishful thinking
but as long as we believe,it will be okay
let's raise the sails,and steer for this ship's never sinking

Have you ever felt
The world slip away from your fingers
Your hopes, worries and anxiety
All crush you beneath a mammoth of fears
That no matter how much you struggle
It'll push further till you bleed
How much you try standing up
It'll splinter the strength in your marrow
Bit by bit
You Crumble and fret
And all of a sudden
You stop struggling.

Have you ever felt
Like giving up to it
Just embrace the slumber
Sooner than planned
And close your eyes
Forever?

I have. I do. I will. Until it all ends...

Meeting you must've been destiny,
Your bright smile lighting up my world.
The moment you entered my life,
It became so much more worthwhile.

We spent many summer days together,
Long nights talking about the world.
Winters spent wrapped up in blankets,
Enjoying each others company.

I wish I could go back with what I knew now,
Prevented many regretful mistakes.
I wish I let you know what I was thinking,
That I could have told you the truth.

I was in love with you,
You were the world to me.
But you had to leave me behind,
So I will keep my thoughts in mind.

Until we meet again.

i'm at this point where
i need something bad to happen
so that i can talk to someone
because there is no
apparent reason for me
to feel the way i do right now
so i can't talk to anyone about it
i can't tell how devastated i am
or how much i'm hurting
it feels like something is eating me up from the inside
and it hurts more than ever
but nothing happened
so i'm just gonna sit here
in the dark biting my tongue
hoping that someone will come
hold my hand and tell me that it is okay

*(s.m)

When I'm with you, my heart beats fast
I'm sorry our conversations don't usually last
I feel like this is going too fast, I never had
a relationship like this in the past, I've only been bashed
I've only crashed, With a razor i slashed, now I'm trashed
I'm waste, toothpaste, When I'm faced, My lips are laced,
That's the case, that's all that i need to say, Now go away
I'm about to have a panic attack every day, I'm just like this
you can't change me, Every time someone gets close to me, i just flee
Like a flea, You can't see me, I'm so small I can't be free, I wish i was
a tree, so no one could be with me, I'd be still until I'd decease, I'm a broken piece of glass, bet you never heard that, In grade 6 all i ever did was wear black, Yeah, i wear that, but it's not fair that, i was made fun of, made me feel suicidal, throwing my emotions in a tidal, tidal wave, I can't be brave, They say, I feel locked away, rocked away, fading, in decay, I can never stay, My heart melts to clay, when i see you everyday. Now I'm broken, trust issues, now I've spoken, can't you see the rhymes I've broke in, I want a cloak n some magic potion to send me away from this place, I'm such a disgrace, I hide my face, I pick up the pace, I tried to avoid them but it didn't work, they just made me hurt, I had a spurt, of confidence there, well that confidence's gone. I'm shattered in pieces. And yeah, you better believe it.

I wish I can write a poem about how I feel
But I can't find the words to express how much it hurt when you left