46n8 - Hello Poetry

46n8 Nov 2022

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Knowing full well,

my hands and face are soft wax,

I still wake up every day,

And pray to the sun,

Hoping one of these times,

It will spare a few drops,

46n8 Oct 2022

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Its funny in the same moment I go from longing so deeply for the past, to stumbling upon a brand new beautiful angle of the shots and im overwhelmed with joy that I've lived the life I have.

46n8 Oct 2022

Leaning

Another gentle let down that feels like a meteor crashing into the earth,

All because I continue to let myself get so excited, and so hopeless.

Like leaning into the curves on a rollercoaster.

46n8 Oct 2022

Noetry

I tried to write about you,
And I couldn't.

As much as I thought of you,
No words came to mind.

I sat for a moment,
Mind as blank as the page before me.

I tried to force it,
Tried to reach and scrape for it.

In the end,
I was grasping at air.

The result,
Is Something im not proud of,

And a story,
With no hero, villain, or moral.

A poem about a girl who left me speechless.

46n8 Oct 2022

No idea

I don't have to make her into a poem,

Without a need for assistance,

She carries herself like Poes finest work,

Like a pristine Brontë.

She might be the life art imitates,

She is the tip of the flame,

At the tip of the match.

46n8 Oct 2022

Splinters

Healing has turned out to be such a long and painful process,

Like pulling out a hundred tiny splinters,

The immense relief you feel as they slide from your skin after a moment of struggle,

The occasional mark left behind,

The hundreds more you'll discover hiding in your hands,

As you drag them along the walls through your days.

46n8 Oct 2022

Movies

I used to say you should live your life a movie you would want to watch.

I see now that its never been one film though.

Its so many different films with sequels and prequels and interwoven storylines in the same big universe.

The protagonist in some is the antagonist in others, the dramatic irony of all the differing perspectives.

Some of the scenes can get pretty ugly, and some are so beautiful you can't quite wrap your head around them.

Some you'll never fully understand, some of the ones you see and never think twice about will be some of the most significant.

The bloopers remind you its not always so serious, and that even when things don't go according to plan, good can come from them.

These films won't be nominated for any awards, or be met with any standing ovations.

They won't go down in history as classics,
They won't make any must watch lists,
But I swear, once you start watching, you won't be able to look away.